I have two types of recurring nightmares. In the first one I’m doing pirouettes on pointe shoes and my foot won’t come down from the pointe shoe or I’m executing jumps but I fail to land and remain in mid-air and in the second I’m back at school and after the end of classes I miss the bus and stay trapped in the school or I return to school as a student and when I face the teachers’/professors’ power I try to convince them that I’m an adult and they should respect me. It is rather telling that even though at school my biggest issue was bullying by other students and not the teachers here the nightmare revolves around the latter rather than the former. Both of these scenarios have something in common. They are both evidence that my subconscious has been traumatized by forms of discipline and over-effort (or rather over-work) which is what connects ballet with school.